Breathing a Sigh of Relief

Finally! Bridget FINALLY seems to be getting better. She woke up a bit before six this morning and she had a fever. I was really upset because all week I’ve been trying to convince myself it was no big deal. Infants had fevers of over 100 degrees for four days all the time, right? But I was covering up my worry that she was going to come out of this with brain damage or something. Or I was slowly poisoning her with an overdose of Infants’ Motrin.

I called the doctor and left a message for the nurse around 8 when Bridget was still asleep. Then when I got her up a few minutes later, I took her temperature, and she was normal. I have since taken it about ten times (you don’t know fun until you’ve used one of those digital ear thermometers) and all have been normal.  When the nurse called back, I had to tell her that the fever that Bridget had at 6 a.m. was gone by 8:30 without the aid of any fever- reducing medicine. The nurse also assured me that I could use the Motrin as often as I needed to. It wasn’t going to cause her to have a facial tic or lose the ability to count past three later in life.

And Bridget has been acting like the old her again this morning. Toddling around downstairs, getting into everything she can, not whining, not wanting to be held. Peeking around my laptop screen to grin at me. So someone tell me why, now that the worst has passed, I feel like I am about to fall apart? I’m trying not to cry right now. There’s no reason. All is well. I guess I was more freaked out than I thought.

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