Tired and Stressed

I am so tired that my bones hurt. I’ve gone far too many nights in a row with far too little sleep. And this is going to be one long week as I get ready for Jake’s mom to be here and for us to be gone for a week. I have things to organize and clean out and appointments and phone calls to make and keep and packing to do…. The good thing is that this will keep me from thinking too much about this whole thing.

Don’t get me wrong, I am so excited to go to Mexico with Jake. I certainly don’t want to go with Bridget. And yet, the thought of leaving her for four days while we are out of the country really bothers me. I know I keep bitching about this and I certainly don’t mean to sound ungrateful for the chance we have to go and for the gracious offer from Jake’s mom to play toddler wrangler for five full days. I really want to get away and relax. And I’m going to try to turn off the mom in me as much as possible. I’m hoping that it is as others say it is - that once I get a certain distance away, I’ll be able to turn it off and start to remember what my life was like before Bridget came along.

But before all that can happen, I have to get a pedicure, get a bikini wax, pack, organize cabinets and the pantry, go to the eye doctor, do a ton of laundry, pick up our wills, pay bills, air out the guest room and make some room in there, figure out weekend plans with the family…. OK, I just need to go to bed now and not think about these things anymore.

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